Loneliness Always Follows
A love, a dream, countless tears, countless pain, heartbroken, with a broken heart.
The wind hows, the rain whispers, and the tears flow endlessly.
Who remembers me, alone under the moon? Who sighs at my lifelong infatuation!
A heart needs to be placed where it won't hurt? A song needs to be listened to how many times before you won't feel lonely? How long do you need to miss someone to forget? When I'm alone, I'm always enveloped by loneliness and sadness. Those memories and past events constantly appear before my eyes, causing endless tears to fall tonight, keeping me sleepless! Loneliness and helplessness come and go, that familiar heartache continues to spread within me. I don't want to always be so sad, but one thing after another, leaving me helpless and with no way out!
I hate loneliness and solitude, but loneliness is always everywhere, and solitude is always like a shadow.
Open the valve of memory, I want to find the memories that can warm my heart, but there is none, not a single one, each past, each scene, will only make my heart hurt more, causing tears to flow like a spring. At one time, I entrusted all my hopes to you, but in the end, you plunged me into endless darkness and pain. Again and again, I wanted to forget you, but when I looked back at my world, those ugly faces and those cruel insults and humiliations made me want to escape. This cold world and this cruel reality are beyond my control. It's the most terrifying thing about humans—not having nothing, but not having hope to live! Let you be my last raft in life! After tasting all the bitterness and hardship of this world, you will return. I am a very fragile woman at heart, but in order to survive and for those I love, I repeatedly force myself to be strong, independent, and to endure what humans cannot.
I have loved, hated, and been obsessed with many things, and I can never forget those unforgettable experiences. How many times have I shouted in despair? How many times have I spent in pain and loneliness, waiting and hoping? How many times have I dreamed of you, with tears blurring my eyes, touching your face, but you turned away.
How many times have I left you in my dreams, I woke up from the dream, facing the dark night alone without you, entangled with pain and loneliness, and with melancholy I toppled a cup. Loneliness sat opposite me, laughing at my infatuation with love, tears flowing into my dream, leaving a desolate land!
I don't want sweet words and promises, I don't want promises of eternity, I just want a warm embrace that will never let go, a shoulder that I can rely on no matter when. When I'm confused, helpless, sad, and lost, he will hug me tightly and say to me gently, 'Don't be afraid, I'm here.' It's a declaration that's deeper than 'I love you!'
I want to give you a heart, but you only gave me a dream. The deeper the love, the deeper the pain. I want to spend my life with you, but you only spent a part of it with me. Love eventually ends with loneliness and regret.
Blame heaven for being unfair—why didn't it let me meet you in my most beautiful years? Why were we so deeply in love, but we could only love and not be together?
